Update

Hello again. Isn't is funny how blogging used to be my life, now it is a fading memory. I guess it doesn't help that I do not have internet at my house. What a pain to have to go to the library all the time. ugh. The update on my life is that I got a job in Gas City and will be moving a coupleof weeks. I have been busy packing, packing, and packing. I also have been setting up my classroom. It is so fun to get things all set up and ready for the new school year. It is very exciting that I am moving back "Home". What a blast I can have with all of my friends in Marion. Okay now it is off to do school work. Ich, and it is only July. All well, the work must be done, school is quickly approaching.

I'm alive...barely...looking for a new job. No interviews yet. For now I'm just packing. World here I come.

Merry Christmas!!

It is Christmas break. I am so excited to relax and enjoy my gifts!

Big Black Rain Cloud

Have you ever felt like there was a big black rain cloud following you around each day? This week was one of those weeks. School was stressful, my cat was sick (which cost ANOTHER 130 dollars), got a flat tire (the only day I wore a skirt to school and it was raining), 50$ to have a guy put the spare tire on, 80 to replace the tire, etc. etc. etc. Yesterday I heard a sermon on the radio about "There is a time for everything..." I guess I just felt like "everything” hit all at once, at least financially. Yes, I did get a raise this year, but my rent went up and so did (obviously) by cat and car expenses. I know everyone has to go through hard times, but I really ready to move on with life and get over this rough patch. This week it was just hard to be in Fort Wayne all by myself and go through the struggles. I mean seriously, my parents are sick of getting my phone calls. But, who do I call?? The guys from my Bible study, the 1 girl from Bible study (who is mad at me again), the "friends" from work, or people from church (who I don't even know.) New friendships take SOOOOO long to form. It is hard to wait, when I just want to be love and supported. Or really, I just want to have fun and hang out in Ft. Wayne. Okay yes this is a big rant and rave, but now I feel better. I'm off to school (AGAIN and ALWAYS), my home away from home, where I must finish my grades and get the new ED program up and running. I have a ton of work to do and little motivation, especially on a Saturday. Oh and another random thought, I ate breakfast at Subway today. Yuck. An egg wrap with honey mustard (as suggested by the lady that worked there) was not kosher. I felt a little nauseous afterwards. I should have just stuck with cappuccino. Okay enough complaining, I'm going to suck up my frustrations and move on with the day-good or bad-I'm on my way.

Struggle

School struggles this year. Lots of crazy things are happening. This week is ISTEP testing. It is so stressful. How many more days of school? I wish I could write more, but I'm restricted by a certain fellow. Hope you all are doing better than me. Take care world. I'm off to do school work :(

Vacation

I am headed out on vacation. Tomorrow I will be going to Cedar Point!! Tis my favorite place on the planet!!

On Sunday I am going to Iowa to visit my family. Randomly though my parents are here in Indiana. They are meeting me on Sunday and we will be caravaning to the hills of Iowa. Then on Thursday I'm going to an amusement park in Iowa, Adventure Land. My brother works there and we are going to hit the roller coasters!!!!

Wahoo!!

I love vacation.

I do not love school. Seriously I don't appreciate when most of my classroom furniture is gone. Where are my groups suppose to meet? Should we sit on the floor?

What???

Okay so Sarah Dignal is married? What is going on here. How come no one told me. I love the pics of her wedding. Who would like to give me the scoop on her wedding??

Let me know!!

Guys

Has anyone figured out the mystery of men? I was recently on the phone with a guy and he threw in the..."you wanna hang out sometime...." Seriously what does that mean?
a. I've been on vacation and truly just miss hanging out with friends.
b. I'm bored and you are not working this summer, so we could hang out.
c. I'm single, you're single...so let's hang out.
d. I want to ask you out on a date, but I don't know you that well...so let's hang out as friends first so I can get to know you.
e. I'm getting closer to 30 and realize I'm single and I need to settle down with a wife.
f. When can we get married?

Okay this is a little over kill...but seriously guys are confusing. They send mixed signals.

For example...I was hanging out with a guy a LOT about 6 months ago. We were together almost every Wednesday, Friday, and Sunday. He called me on the other days and we talked for hours. We did things together, for example we went to the park and walked and talked. I've been to his house many time and have even gotten to know his family. But recently I've seen him and he is distant. He doesn't call as much and we don't hang out because he is working so much. But, he always makes promises, "I want to hang out. I'll call you." Really now...come on. Do you really want to hang out or are you just a player and want to keep me in your loop 'in case.' Do you really not want to be friends, but are afraid to drop me or tell me the truth?

I would rather guys just be honest. At least I would have to wonder and I would spend a lot less time (obsessing)thinking/wondering and more time living my life.

So, how do you know when you have met "The ONE"????? Some people say they know right away. But with many of my friends one of the parties involved was in LOVE long before the other knew they existed. What is you know he's the one, but he doesn't. When is the right time to tell him? If it is too early, you will scare him off....but if you wait, you will lose him.

I hate being single. I don't even want to do the "dating" thing. I would rather skip to married and live happily ever after. Dating is a hard game to play, your emotions are on the line and there is a point where you have to live in limbo because you don't know how the other person feels.

Guys are soooooo confusing. Any advice??